Well, Saturday was The Gray Havens concert. It was wonderful. Dave and Licia are really lovely, and of course the music was phenomenal. We got to chat a little here and there, and they wanted to know about my own writing. This, naturally, resulted in further thoughts about how I really don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going as a writer. So when I was trying to decide what to post today, I started looking through the poetry folders on my computer. This one caught my eye.posted it before, just after writing it. This is one of those poems that pretty much wrote itself - an unmistakable gift from God. As such, it hasn't needed much work, but there were still things to be tweaked; a word here, a phrase there, so that it not only says what it's suppose to say, but says it well and sounds right. I think I've finally got there. Maybe. :)
At any rate, the ideas still resonate, albeit in a slightly different way than when I wrote it; I still don't know what I'm doing, or where I'm going, but God does.
Why am I walking alone in this cavern?
Even your presence seems so far away.
I see the signs that you’ve carved to direct me,
But my faith’s flickering, as I delay.
I am not troubled, for I know you’re here.
You have ordained it, and it will be so.
I can’t help wondering where we are going,
But all you tell me is, “Step out and go.”
I have been learning to trust through surrender,
Leaving contingency planning to you.
All I can do is press on and be faithful;
You’ll lead and guide me as I wait for you.
So I will praise you, Lord, out of this chaos;
Your Spirit’s moving in ways I can’t see.
I will surrender my need to be sovereign
In the assurance that you’ll care for me.